Life & Movies & Grad School
Nov. 17th, 2008 02:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wynddancerWell, Mom's really pushing me to keep my little 20 hr/week GA job next semester. In order to do that, I'd have to back to school, which I really don't want to do. I'm sick of studying, bitch, why don't you understand that? Yes, I know I really need health insurance since "You can go south so quickly on me." I do understand that me not having health insurance is a "risky" proposition. However, you need to quit being a bitch about it. I'm trying to check into what I need to do to go back to school even though I'm graduating in Dec. The school is telling me that I need to reapply again (which is dumb as hell I'll admit since they already have my LOR and essay) and it's pissing YOU off. Back off bitch. I'm tired of you throwing a tantrum at me/being mad at me because of the school policies. Nothing is going to change them. Not me and not you.
I don't really want to go back to school. I'd like to have a life and be able to find a job. I want to pursue other interests. I'm ready to be creative again. I'd like to learn to draw/paint and to be able to concentrate on what I want to write instead of writing fuckin' papers for my classes, which I dislike. My ultimate secret ambition is to be able to pay my bills by being a published writer. These damn classes take that time away from me. Time that I could spend pursuing writing and other creative interests. I don't want to spend another $2-3,000 on classes I don't want to take. God. It's going to take me forever to pay back the loans I took out for degrees that I no longer want. To tell the truth, I didn't want them in the first place if I'm being honest with my self. I don't like formal education. I prefer educating myself. I spent/am in debt to $20,000 b/c people think you need formal eduation in health studies and library science. You don't. Science, yes. Those 2 no. It's basically reading, writing papers, and taking exams. I read the books on my own for much cheaper and learn it that way but no......to be a librarian, you need an ALA accredited degree and the health educator CHES exam requires a certain number of HS classes. Argh!
Watched Nina's Heavenly Delights. It's about a woman who is estranged from her family (Indians living in Scotland) b/c she didn't want the arranged marriage and refused to marry him. She comes back after her dad, a famous chef, dies and finds out he gambled away the restuarant to a former classmate of hers (a woman). They develop a relationship. It's a sweet movie. My only complaint is the lack of subtitles, which would help to understand what some of the actors are saying (they really have a thick Scottish accent and I can't understand them). Overall B+ to an A.
Watched Eureka DVD season 1 disc 1. The show is fabulous and inspired. I really liked it. I like the sherrif who doesn't have a science background in this show about a town full of genius science types. I like the black scientist actor person. I know I've seen him in other roles and I'm pretty sure one of them was another science type role. I just can't remember where. I think he's my fave chara on the show. I'd like to see Rodney McKay in Eureka or House. Hah. That's be fun.
Watched The Brothers Grimm. Eh. I can't make up my mind about the movie. All of the bug scenes, well, they "bugged" me. Ha. I kind of liked it and kind of didn't. I liked the charas in the movie but I kept thinking clean up! Use some raid! I think I kept waiting for it to be better than it was. It just didn't fully engage me the way Dresden Files and Eureka (even more so) did.
Watched Dresden Files season 1 disc 1. It was fun. I have a lot of questions. I think maybe you really need to read the books to fully understand what I going on in the eps. I'm sad to realize that the show was canceled after 1 season. That's always the way it is though and why I don't watch much tv anymore. The shows that I like usually have a short lifespan (Firefly, etc.) so why should I invest time in watching them?
More and more I realize that tv shows only exist to promote the commercials, which is why low viewership equals cancellation. I despise commercials. No, I don't have a DVR or whatever. I tape my shows with a VCR and fast forward through the commercials. Significant time savings. I'm really getting into watching tv shows on DVD (no commercials, better picture quality and sound). I love my library: free books, free dvd rental, etc.).
I don't really want to go back to school. I'd like to have a life and be able to find a job. I want to pursue other interests. I'm ready to be creative again. I'd like to learn to draw/paint and to be able to concentrate on what I want to write instead of writing fuckin' papers for my classes, which I dislike. My ultimate secret ambition is to be able to pay my bills by being a published writer. These damn classes take that time away from me. Time that I could spend pursuing writing and other creative interests. I don't want to spend another $2-3,000 on classes I don't want to take. God. It's going to take me forever to pay back the loans I took out for degrees that I no longer want. To tell the truth, I didn't want them in the first place if I'm being honest with my self. I don't like formal education. I prefer educating myself. I spent/am in debt to $20,000 b/c people think you need formal eduation in health studies and library science. You don't. Science, yes. Those 2 no. It's basically reading, writing papers, and taking exams. I read the books on my own for much cheaper and learn it that way but no......to be a librarian, you need an ALA accredited degree and the health educator CHES exam requires a certain number of HS classes. Argh!
Watched Nina's Heavenly Delights. It's about a woman who is estranged from her family (Indians living in Scotland) b/c she didn't want the arranged marriage and refused to marry him. She comes back after her dad, a famous chef, dies and finds out he gambled away the restuarant to a former classmate of hers (a woman). They develop a relationship. It's a sweet movie. My only complaint is the lack of subtitles, which would help to understand what some of the actors are saying (they really have a thick Scottish accent and I can't understand them). Overall B+ to an A.
Watched Eureka DVD season 1 disc 1. The show is fabulous and inspired. I really liked it. I like the sherrif who doesn't have a science background in this show about a town full of genius science types. I like the black scientist actor person. I know I've seen him in other roles and I'm pretty sure one of them was another science type role. I just can't remember where. I think he's my fave chara on the show. I'd like to see Rodney McKay in Eureka or House. Hah. That's be fun.
Watched The Brothers Grimm. Eh. I can't make up my mind about the movie. All of the bug scenes, well, they "bugged" me. Ha. I kind of liked it and kind of didn't. I liked the charas in the movie but I kept thinking clean up! Use some raid! I think I kept waiting for it to be better than it was. It just didn't fully engage me the way Dresden Files and Eureka (even more so) did.
Watched Dresden Files season 1 disc 1. It was fun. I have a lot of questions. I think maybe you really need to read the books to fully understand what I going on in the eps. I'm sad to realize that the show was canceled after 1 season. That's always the way it is though and why I don't watch much tv anymore. The shows that I like usually have a short lifespan (Firefly, etc.) so why should I invest time in watching them?
More and more I realize that tv shows only exist to promote the commercials, which is why low viewership equals cancellation. I despise commercials. No, I don't have a DVR or whatever. I tape my shows with a VCR and fast forward through the commercials. Significant time savings. I'm really getting into watching tv shows on DVD (no commercials, better picture quality and sound). I love my library: free books, free dvd rental, etc.).
